So I know it’s been quite a while since I’ve been here. I guess it’s kind of fitting that it’s May that I come back to my blog, in that May is Mental Health Awareness Month. I have been away from my blog due to my depression. My depression has kicked my rear! So much has happened in the last three years and things have finally started to calm down, that I was no longer constantly in “crisis mode” that my depression just really hit me hard.
I had been battling/working on my depression, but when things started leveling out, as I told my therapist, I felt that my depression should have started getting better. She helped me understand that I was able to feel it easier because I wasn’t in crisis mode constantly. I told my therapist that I was constantly feeling “blah” and was tired of feeling “blah.” It was beginning to feel like a vicious cycle and the more “blah” I felt the worse it was. I wasn’t enjoying anything. I was doing the bare minimum at home and wanted to sleep as much as possible.
Fortunately, I had an appointment with my psychiatrist and she increased one of my medications. It took about a week, but eventually the “blah” feeling started going away. I started laughing again – and it felt good!
Now, to update on the boys –
Tony has decided to tackle a doctorate degree along with working full-time. So that is keeping him busy.
Caleb is still doing well on his antibiotic keeping his infection away at his incision with his VNS. We will meet with his infectious disease doctor in June to discuss whether we’re going to decrease his dose down to a therapeutic dose or take him off of it. Our choice is to put him on a therapeutic dose, since we’re a little leery in taking him off of it completely. Especially since the day after we meet with his infectious disease doctor Caleb will be having surgery on both of his legs to correct bowing in both of his legs. We’re told that his recovery should be quick. The plan right now is that it will be an out-patient surgery; however, the doctor said they will only keep him overnight if his pain is not under control.
Steven continues to do extremely well. He is in his spring session of hippotherapy and doing occupational therapy right now.
Both boys have four more days of school. Then they will begin YESS Camp. If you want to learn about the camp that they will be attending, watch the wonderful video below.
Well, that’s an update on what’s been going on. Hopefully, I’ll be able to update much more frequently now that my depression is under control!